Wow it's been a while!

I can't believe I have been gone for so long! Three months! It has been a crazy few months but I'm really glad to be writing this. It feels like things do when you see an old friend, or pick up your favourite book- like it doesn't matter how much time passes, when you see them or read that book or play that instrument it is like no time has passed and you are home!

Now first I will say that although I have been busy, I have also been procrastinating too. Not in the way where I am aware of it and feel guilty, but in a more freeing way I have actually been a little selfish- reading a lot, watching telly, started going to the gym, and letting myself feel where I want my life to take me, rather than feeling forced into doing something until I "get a chance" to do something else. It has made me happier about my day-job, which, lets face it, pays the bills, while I am letting my heart know that in little ways I can express myself and move closer to doing something for a living that I am passionate about.

Anyway! Two of my glorious delights that I have been soaking up like sweet wine are the TV series "Supernatural" and the Laurell K Hamilton "Merry Gentry" series of books. I have mentioned before how much I love her books and I am just so into them right now. I have never been much of a "supernatural/fantasy" kind of reader/watcher before, but I am TOTALLY into this scene right now! I've always been a chick flick/lit kinda girl, but I started watching supernatural and have loved the Merry Gentry books for ages, so I have been immersed in all this mythological, old world stuff round the clock. It has certainly had an impact on my dreams.

As I was drifting off to sleep I was thinking about something in the current Merry Gentry book I am reading about young psychics who are coached in their abilities to develop them, and my mind was wandering through thoughts about how awesome it would be if the real world (that I know about) was like that. I mean what if people identified these talented little people and instead of taking them to psychologists and putting them on drugs, actually took them to a kind of school where they could develop their abilities and use them for good (the characters like this in Merry Gentry series use their abilities to solve crimes). Maybe somewhere they do...

Now I'm not saying I do believe or don't believe in the psychic world, as I've neither experienced anything for myself nor known anyone who claims to have these abilities, I was just in that place between awake and asleep where I mused that if only the people in this world weren't afraid of what they cannot see or experience themselves that it would be a wonderful thing.

It all comes down to fear I suppose. I mean, I am a little afraid of that world being true as it is a scary and unknown thing. A little, ha, okay yes, a paranormal world puts fear in me as I don't know it to be true. But it could be.

I am glad for this little divergence as I feel it is opening my imagination a little more, letting more creativity and possibility into my soul. So despite my absence, that's gotta be a good thing right?