OH THE DRAMA!!!!

You know what I've been watching? Party of five. Yes it's true. Party of five. From 1995. Actually I'm up to season two now so it's 1996. You know how old I was then? 12. The same age as "Claudia". So not my point.

I have this habit of finding a TV series (I believe I have mentioned this before) and getting obsessed with it. Not just watch the whole series from beginning to end obsessed, I mean watch the whole series three times through before I move on obsessed. Like rope other people into watching it obsessed. I mean so obsessed I don't even want to confess as you will stop reading and never visit me again! The latest (before P.O.F, as I will affectionately abbreviate it to) was Supernatural, of which I have watched three times through, including most special features, every blooper several times (as who could not tell me that the bloopers are almost the best part and any show that leaves you without bloopers leaves you feeling depressed and totally jibbed!!!!),  and the current episodes I watch on the internet (I'm not saying where! I live in Australia, they don't show it here and have an Addiction to support!)

So I finally decided I needed a break from Supernatural and luckily I got a friend at work hooked so I lent her all my DVD's, which meant I needed a new series.

Enter P.O.F.

I don't know how I thought of it, but I was running an errand for work and for some reason the show popped in my head. Since that day (about a week ago) I've been hooked. And I'm serious - I'm hooked. And you know why? THE DRAMA!

My God! It's been forever since I've actually had to PAUSE a show cause it's too FREAKIN intense!!!

I stop mid-way through a scene (especially with Charlie, oh my, he gets into some major mishaps, and as a 12 year old who wasn't really supposed to watch the show, I couldn't fully appreciate him, but now, oh my...) anyway, so I get midway through the scene, I know what's about to happen, I'm scared for him, I'm nervous for him, I'm thinking holy-shit-what-have-you-done-now for him, and suddenly it hit me what a lot of my own writing is missing. I'm too scared to put my characters in really AWKWARD positions.

Maybe sometimes I just need to let go and really put the worst possible scenario out there. Cause really, I can think of some awful ones, but I'm usually like 'nah, that's too unrealistic/awkward/over-the-top' but NO! We NEED it! We THRIVE on it! I ALWAYS press PLAY!!!! Even if I don't want to, I still reallly, really DO!

It hurts me sometimes, some of the things I watch, actual pain, actual tears, actual awkwardness, but I go back again and again.

I don't know what my point is. If anyone knows please tell me.

All I know is that I was halfway through a REALLY awkward scene where the confrontation is ABOUT TO HAPPEN! I CAN SEE IT! And I pressed pause to tell you gorgeous people about it. Is that my whole point?